@justagirlwhoyaps No, it's not strange at all. We get used to being a certain way, behaving a certain way. It's familiar, it's comfortable. Perhaps not healthy, but it's a known situation. Then we step outside that comfort zone and look at helping ourself, exploring how to feel better/do things in a more healthy manner. And find that it's wasn't a difficult thing to reframe our thinking. Our "old" way of thinking was familiar, and our brain would like us to believe that was the best/easiest route. When we put effort into changing things up, and find it's working, we might beat ourself up for not doing it earlier. Don't do that! You're making changes now, for the better, and that is what counts. Please be gentle on yourself.
Ginger