@justagirlwhoyaps Welcome to Mayo Clinic Connect. I am glad you're here. I am glad to see your post and how complete your thought process is, on what you are feeling and going through. It shows to me that you have thought a lot about this!

Now, what I am going to say may run counter to what you are thinking. Being a young person like you are, there are still a lot of emotional upheavals in your system being that young. No matter the home environment or the events that you have already experienced. That said, there is also the additional factors of the traumatic events you have already talked to us about. So, there are several factors at play here. I'm glad that you are back in to seeing a therapist, and as she told you it may take a little bit to figure out exactly what is going on. I will tell you that even as a young person, my emotions were all over the place also, and going through traumatic experiences I never knew how I was going to feel on any given day. It has colored my life ever since then.

I'm sorry to hear that your folks are not on board necessarily with your mental health concerns. Are there other family members or close friends that you can turn to? Sometimes having a trusted adult to talk to, means the world of difference. I know it was the case for me! If you do indeed receive a formal diagnosis of bipolar or another mental health condition, at least you will understand what is going on and it will be a step forward for you to start working on yourself. So, rather than being terrified of getting a diagnosis, look forward to having something concrete that you can move forward with. That will be a big positive in your life. Do you think you can do this?

Something that you might try to help you is journaling your thoughts. It helps to get things out of your mind and onto paper or screen. Ginger