@tomef , it’s scary and hard! I’ve found that the journey is not a straight path since my diagnosis in 2023. There are still days I can’t believe I have what I have and the severity of it. I actually was praying for kidney stones after my very first urologist appointment ruled out a urinary tract infection. I’ve celebrated extreme highs thanks to my awesome doctors, family, and friends and extreme lows when the cancer came back . I do believe that if we had to get stuck with this terrible but treatable disease, we’re kind of lucky to have it now because of all of the new treatment options that didn’t exist in the past for the many variants. This Is a great supportive online forum and I wish you the best in your journey.