Just want to say “chin up” — what my dad used to say to me when times were challenging. Second, don’t give up! There is a LOT medicine can do for you that may be short of a total cure. Third, your diagnosis may be flawed. I was initially told I had Stage 4 esophageal adenocarcinoma. However, the second medical institution I consulted eventually rolled me back to a possibly early Stage 3. Whatever happens in your case, it will not be as bad as your dread — or death. It’s great you’ve come here for support!