@lhatfield96, The way you are feeling is understandable. I have scans every 3-4 months. I TRY to flip the narrative in my head. I tell myself, if there is something of concern, worrying about it is not going to change the outcome. If there is something there, I want to know about it so we can act on it early. Also, knowing what we'll do when I do have progression helps. I have a plan in place with my oncologist, which has changed over time as new information or treatments have come available. I think I'm ok leading up to scans, but once they are over with, I do feel the sense of relief too. It's not an easy situation to manage. It sounds like you are taking next steps to get some additional help, that's important too. Good luck to you tomorrow, take a deep breath, wishing you well.