@tjberryi I am glad that you are meeting with your physician. Once you get the referral, do you know where you are going to go next? I always have a few questions prepared for any doctor visit. If it is a first visit with a doctor, I always start off with a question like, "I couldn't do your job, so I really appreciate people like you that can. Why do you do it?" I really couldn't do their job, so it is an honest question. I have been pleasantly surprised by most of the answers that I have received. It also seems to set the tone of the relationship. We are just two humans doing our best to help me, and I appreciate the help.

I can relate to not telling most of my family. Some get too emotional or shut down to make a conversation helpful. My dad, who is now 90, has really helped. At that age, he has seen a lot and lost a lot of people. He reminds me getting old ain't easy for anyone. It hurts. It is unavoidable. I just got a bit of a head start on most people. He really helps me keep things in perspective. I am fortunate to have a big family. I can lean on my wife, and a few other close family members, when it is too hard to stand on my own.

@tjberryi My husband doesn't speak much either 💔 I try to engage in any way I can just to try to help him open up. Anything to understand how he's feeling. At times I feel guilty if this makes any sense? That I'm not having to deal with all that he's endured these last 18 months. I told him as much also. That I at times can't imagine how hard this is for him.
I feel for you also . Anyone you can talk to? Sometimes people need time to deal with the reality of all this. It's so hard for all involved. 🙏

@tjberryi Good luck today. Please let us know how it goes?