@trooperdogg1960 That is great that you put all that down! I understand what you are saying and I believe that there is truth in it. Everything is subjective, so it is difficult to know what another person deals with. I do identify with a person that used to drink and use drugs. I have been in rehab 4 times since the age of 14 years old. I tried many times to put down the substances. Each time I relapsed, it got worse and worse until I finally surrendered to what I believe to be the power of the Universe. I did go to AA because it was the only thing I knew to do at the time and I received what I needed from the people as well as the program which is to get me to take myself out of myself and realize that I am neither god, nor the center of the Universe. I still live by the principles of what I learned in the 12 step program. As a person who started using at such a young age, I had no idea how to function sober. Everything was ALWAYS about me. I learned to try and help other people, not to receive anything back (at least I try) but to just be of service, whether that is opening a door for someone, letting someone out in traffic, or picking up a friend on meth at a hotel and calling 911. I am so glad you are moving. I can relate to that as well. I got sick with Covid, twice in 2022. It passed and then several months later, I was struck down with something awful. I was so sick and no one, even the doctors knew what was wrong. They knew it was something with my immune system. After 4 years of this and a lot of research, I know it is long COVID. Talk about people looking at you different. There are people that do not believe it is real. It is VERY REAL. I used to run every morning with my dogs, lifted weights and was the strongest and healthiest I have ever been due to being sober and exercise. Now, it is all different. I have fatigue, malaise (even doing small things), tinnitus, joint pain, brain fog, muscle aches, heart races, headaches and these symptoms are different each day, except for the fatigue. I have my own theories about autoimmune issues and trauma that I won't go into here. I appreciate your honesty and sharing here. Beautiful pic. I am sharing one I took off a boat in the Caribbean.