@shellyk89, Dear Shelly, you have touched my soul so deeply with your words, I wish that I’m able to express myself with the depth of your heart, I felt like you were inside me saying everything that I want to say but I don’t have to do this because you have done this for me and everyone else who is going through the same suffering. I’m so sorry that you’re a young woman with children who desperately need you and you’re carrying everything inside for them so that they don’t have to be afraid but children are pure in heart and they are so very connected to their mothers, they have a part of their mother’s soul and we can’t hide very much from them, we can only try to keep them safe and reassure them that we will always love them and be there however we can. It always comes in waves of fear, anger and often so much anger and we ask God why this happened, I always talk to God and tell Him how I feel but I know that He already knows what is in my heart, the beautiful revelation for me is that I began to realize that God is there and listening to me, sometimes I can feel His presence and I get answers to my prayers, they come to me in many ways and from sources that are so unexpected but I know that they are for me. We don’t get to choose the life we’re given and it can sometimes make us angry and helpless but you eventually learn to accept whatever blessings we have and keep moving forward, Shelly, always keep praying and don’t lose your faith in the life you’re given because you’re not alone, you are always surrounded by God’s love, amen.