@jo55 I’m seven months out from the death of my wife of 58 years and I can say that six weeks means you are in the raw state of grieving. The crying and difficulty with the anniversary dates are very hard. It sounds like you did a very loving thing for him by letting him go when you did. Don’t be hard on yourself for that. I found that having a grief counselor and a grief support group has been very helpful. Like you say, it’s very difficult and takes time to go through. I wish you the best.