My doctor did even worse to me. She wanted $2,500 ontop of what she gets from insurance to continue writing my pain medications. I'm on disability and can't even get food in my home for a whole month let alone come up with a $2,500 basically bribe money when she wasn't even giving me enough to touch my pain but psychologically I felt better knowing that at least I had something. I have 2 rare diseases, Complex Regional Pain Syndrome, Small Fiber Peripheral Neuropathy and Cardiomegaly which i was told I would die from after it got severe when my daughter died 2 months after my father but unfortunately I'm still stuck here. I'm thinking of moving to North Carolina where a girl online said there was a good doctor that writes prescriptions. I just keep begging God to let me come home to Him because I'm all by myself now and can't handle the physical and mental pain. I've seen 69 doctors trying to get rid of my sadistic doctor and each one has turned me down. The sad thing is all I need is IV Lidocaine which helps nerve pain amazingly but no one cares about anyone but themselves anymore. I had one doctor tell me he could careless if I die in the worst pain there is. My heart breaks for all of us that are suffering. When did this world become so very very cruel? It doesn't even make sense. We're supposed to put others before ourselves but nobody pays attention to God's word anymore. People have become lovers of money instead of God and people. Sometimes I think of finding the worst neighborhood I can find and shouting insulting things so that maybe someone will shoot me. With my luck I would probably survive though. I've even looked into other Countries but I didn't find one that treats chronic pain patients with Compassion and Empathy. Its a cold lonely scary life. I'm constantly in the flight or fight mode which how I got the Small Fiber Peripheral Neuropathy. God have mercy on us all.