@desi09858 it sounds like you are carrying a heavy burden and I think it is great you are seeking solutions.
1) you say you don’t “feel” like your parents would support you- that totally makes sense! Many of us do not have supportive parents which sucks. However - one thing I have learned from therapy is “feelings aren’t facts”. I would encourage you to bring this up with your parents if there is even a chance they would support you getting help.
2) if you are able to discuss treatment options with a professional, I would really encourage you to be open to what your doctor says in regards to medication management for your unique situation. I find it discouraging when people on social sites make broad statements like how you should never take meds. It’s very stigmatizing and you should feel no shame about using tools that help you get better. Medication is just one tool. It’s not one size fits all. And there are risks. However you and your doctor can discuss options that work for YOU.
3) if you are looking for a free resource to help you manage your thinking using cognitive behavioral therapy, I recommend the app Feeling Great. It’s developed by Dr. David Burns MD, a renowned psychiatrist. I’ve used it myself as a supplement to therapy and medication.
Good luck and we are all rooting for you!