Good morning, Friend,
I am here and I hear you. You went through a harrowing experience with tornados around you last evening. I cannot imagine what a frightening time that must have been.
But look at you! You are starting an internship for a graduate program! Just think of where you have walked the last few years and yet brave YOU are taking on a great challenge! How incredible is that? I think the most important sentence in your sharing was, “I want so badly to be able to walk the dogs again, feel like going to the store, many things that I can't do some days.”
Remember the operable words here are “some days.” You spoke in earlier postings about your seemingly never-ending struggles. For some of us who have high aspirations and hopes, it feels horrible and almost cruel that we cannot make our bodies do what our minds long to accomplish. So today you are not able to begin your internship that you have chosen to start. I think your tenacity to even take that on is admirable.
Over a year ago, I made a saying for myself after feeling such frustration regarding my circumstances. I was hoping it would provide an impetus to continue to strive for my goals and not completely give up. I took some of my nicest stationery and I wrote the following:
“It’s not for Forever. It’s just for Now…” I have this on my bedroom mirror and I see it each day. Perhaps you could find something similar that resonates with you to remind yourself that yes, you can go on. Yes, you can continue. And yes, someday your life may be wonderfully different.
Wishing you the best.