@djg1951
Dear djg1951, I was touched to read your post. Anxiety is a horrible thing, at its worst you can feel as if you are doing to die because you are so worked up and can't catch your breath. Even when it is not that extreme, chronic anxiety can suck away at your life and make you miserable.
It is not possible to just get rid of that anxiety by wishing it away. I have an adult son who suffered from anxiety which crippled his life. He made an appointment to see a psychologist,
and that changed his whole life. He still sees his psychologist from time to time - she understood his issues, spent a long time talking through what was affecting him, and taught him simple strategies for dealing with his anxiety. If I were you, I would have a talk with your GP, and ask him/her to refer you to a good psychologist in your area. Your issues won't go away with one session, it might take time, but it is just as vital to take care of your mental health as your physical health. By the way, a friend's husband had a heart triple bypass operation 2 years ago. He now enjoys going on long hikes in the countryside, up to 8 miles a day! Don't give up on your husband, make sure he does all his rehabilitation exercises, and he will be back with you. The way to stay positive is to look for and enjoy the good things in your life, and have hope and belief that your situation can get better given time. Rach out to family and friends, ask if you can talk things over with them, and you will be surprised to find out how many people want to help support you. You are not alone.