@jorenee
Dear Jorenee, I can emphasize with your experiences of bipolar disease and serious illness. I have had bipolar since I was a teenager, but was not diagnosed until in my 40s. My life had been a roller coaster ride of mania and depression, but I have now been with the same psychiatrist for 20 years, and after many, many different medications and several stays in psychiatric hospitals I have finally been pretty stable for about 5 years. I still take medications, but I am on safe ground now, and am trying to fully enjoy life, especially since I was diagnosed with ALS last year and use a ventilator at night. Sometimes life just doesn't seem fair. My mother is still with us, at the age of 96, and has never had a serious illness in her life! Amazing, as she lived through war-torn Europe in WW2 and came here to Australia as a refugee! You have a lot to deal with, but please try to look up, not down. I am sure there are things in life you can still enjoy, even if that is just a cup of coffee and a chat with a friend. We are all in this thing called 'life' together, and I want to let you know that there is someone in Australia who has read your post and is thinking of you and sending you good vibes.
@ellu