I don't know where you live. But if youre in Minnesota a good place to go is university of minnesota hospital on west bank. That's for mental health ER. You can just walk right off the street. They stabilize people and help them come back. They have inpatient and partial hospital programs. To my mind you just can't worry about what other people think. This is your life at stake. Btw I did have my first ER visit to St. Marys in Rochester. It was physical and mental health. They did make me take off clothes and put on paper scrubs and take all my things including car keys. I just decided to let go and trust because I needed help. They just totally take over and but sometimes that's what people need. But I did survive and I did get antibiotics and good inout. I think I also benefitted from clinical providers talking to each other. That is what happens when you're sitting in observation room. Infection and other physical problems can influence your mind. So don't discount that physical problems are causing mind problems. St. Mary's is good for diagnosing physical problems. University of Minnesota is good for west bank mental health ER. I do think you might be able to find help at a university hospital with a medical school. Good luck. It with be ok.