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~ Difficult transition with move, loss of dog, kitty ill ~
Mental Health | Last Active: Jul 10, 2017 | Replies (28)Comment receiving replies
Thank you so much Teresa for writing to me. At times I feel like I'm living in the land of no-one - not just with you all, but generally. Still have not heard from either of the low-income apartment places and I'm pretty bummed out about that. With everything that's happened since I got here, and the way everything has turned out, I do think I made a mistake. I love my kids, but I cannot sit alone in this place, watching myself getting fatter, sleeping, reading books. No sense packing up much as I have to give my landlady 2 months notice before I move. My Psychiatrist has me back on Lamictal again. With that I have to take Propanalol because the Lamictal gives me what they call "essential tremors." My daughter is having a houseful on July 4 .... wow, she sure has energy. There will be at least 20 people there, plus 7 kids. I'm not going .... I don't like big crowds of loud people, and some of them are really loud when they get a few beers under their belt - rowdy is a good word for it. I imagine Jen is disappointed, but it is what it is. I'm doing things for me now, not to please everyone else.
Again Teresa, thank you so much for thinking of me ..... that really felt good. It's been a long 2 years down here.
abby
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Not really I guess .... I hate fireworks. I was forced to go to them when I was little and the loud sounds hurt my ears .... it still does. My condo closing is July14, which I'm very ambivalent about. I knew I had to sell it if I was not going back, but feeling as I do down here, I should have stayed in my cozy little nest.
abby
@amberpep Hi Abby: With major changes (like selling your condo) there will undoubtedly be feelings of ambivalence, I get that. Regarding the 4th of July and doing something you might enjoy - have you considered going to a movie or perhaps taking a walk in a park? Teresa
Thanks Teresa for the encouragement. I did have some wonderful news today (thank you Lord). I was accepted in the low-income apartments that I really wanted to get into .... first floor, 3 BR, 2 BA, K, L/DR combo, and a patio. And all the windows face the huge mountains around here. Lots of light. I could have moved in now, but I paid for the first month and the deposit so they would hold it for me. Now I've gotta' pack like mad, but it won't be nearly as bad as when I moved from my condo. I'm very organized when it comes to things like this. It helps when it comes to letting my condo go......at least I think it will. I probably won't leave the house on the 4th. I'm not one to go out alone at night. I am so hoping that I will be happier in Staunton than here in Harrisonburg.
abby
@amberpep, This is awesome news. I am happy for you to have something to look forward to! The view sounds beautiful!
Rosemary
@amberpep Abby, I'm so pleased for you!! (I'm doing my happy dance). I really do envy the view you will have, I just love looking at mountains! Teresa
Thank you Teresa ..... I am so excited I could pop! I'll have a patio for my plants in warm weather and the windowsills are wide so I'll have lots of room to set my African Violets. I had 20 when I moved here .... regular and unusual colors, and within a few months all but 3 died. Well, I clipped off some of the center, healthiest leaves, rooted them, and now I'm back up to 15. A.V. are a sweet memory from my Grandmother who loved them - every windowsill was full - and she gave me my first one when I was 15. When the season comes I'm heading to a special nursery and getting more of the unusual ones.
This is the first time since I've been here I feel more positive about life down here ...... I love the mountains and of course here we're surrounded, and all my windows face directly toward them. I can just "feel" sitting in my chair on a cold snowy day, drinking my tea, watching a snow storm slowly coming over the mountains. And the beautiful walks and hikes ..... well, I could go on forever. Thank you Teresa for sticking with me. Now back to packing.
abby
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@amberpep Abby, my heart goes out to you - you are in a difficult place - no doubt about that. If I lived closer I would love to sit down and have a visit - but I guess we are limited to cyberspace for now. Please know that we all appreciate your honesty and thoughtfulness as you share yourself with us on Mayo Connect! Can you think of one special thing you might do the 4th to make it a big special? Teresa