@jimhd and others. When I was self employed I had the same experience as you. I had a lot of.trouble with myself. Not a joke.
My job as a home health care person puts me in touch with people who have extremely tough issues. Suicidal ideation, anxiety, bipolar and the whole ball of wax. Since I have suffered with all of this, and still do, I find a great reward in sharing my own challenges with my clients who are going through the same thing. Well meaning friends say that this emotional drain from someone else's stuff does not help me. But for me, personally, it works. Kinda like in AA you want to talk with someone who is also struggling with an addiction. Unless you have walked in their shoes, it's very hard to understand the complexity of mental stuff.