@grasping well, when you get older, it is good to cultivate what you have, your inner beauty, like it is your garden—cultivate it with love….the mirror never rewarded me very much, so I have cultivated other values.

@grasping I agree that "outer beauty" , although it may be "in the eyes of the beholder" goes a long way ... the prettiest woman in the office, the most handsome man at the tennis club etc etc.... but we still had "movie stars" who were not considered "beautiful." I was shortest in my class and you can guess the rest of my life.... inherited my mother's nose which she reminded me of when discussing my birth... lol However, I dont personally refer to it as inner "beauty" but perhaps being content with who we are,.. sorry I cant explain properly how I feel about it... we ARE, in my humble opinion, judged by our looks, even by our clothing, our weight, our verbal communication etc etc. Human are a peculiar type of animal.. but majority of "animals" each look the same as their brethren, dont they? A sense of humour goes a long way and I am beginning to lose mine as I get older ...

@grasping ....
Keeping aside "inner beauty" in your post, you've also said earlier:
"I need to stop posting and reading how "normal" people handle Bad experiences and Aging because I am feeling more and more down when I hear how most people deal and I cannot."
So as a "normal" person (with enough aging experience of 82+ years) I'll share some of my 'challenges' to illustrate why looks do not matter as much as you seem to think.
But first, let's see what has been talked about this matter of attractiveness and happiness. Here's what i found:
Top 10% in attractiveness were only 10% happier than the BOTTOM 15% in looks. according to a Univ study in Texas

In other words if you are making with top looks $110k/year (moneywise-happy) I'll be making with least good looks 100K/yr...hardly something I'll lose my sleep on!
And I haven't even talked about a dozen other Pleasures that do NOT require money or status or fame, even health.
https://liberalarts.utexas.edu/economics/news/feature-archive/beautiful-people-are-happier-economists-find.html
As a "normal" person I had brush with extreme hopelessness in my 20s regarding employment but also had good fortune for ten years later. And then again in my fifties had to work on minimum wage jobs as unemployment was too high. It was only toward in my late fifties that I got to work in my field of expertise.
But I never got sick, physically or mentally, as I still could survive. And yes I moved where the job was, two suitcases was all my belonging, with a typewriter and phoneset for landline for years until close to retiring.

Today I am busy planning each day such that I won't regret I wasted on what is Most Important. And it's to spend it what matters to me most as a life I could not say looking back: 'O, I should have cared less about this and more about that. Each hour is with the satisfaction that this is the best I could spend it as: for rest, physical/mental upkeep, for Pleasure. If not now, there's no other chance. THIS drives me to be frugal with the asset we call Time. I spend a lot today on finding healthy connections. I also spend time to understand the world I/you live in for it too, like nature, determines how much it can shape my life.

I'd love to see you have the most out of our precious lives!