@sheila1960

It really is important for you to get some quality counseling. You need to find some access to counseling services. Check with your local Easter Seals to see if they offer counseling services. Often, the fee is much lower. Also, you might consider connecting with a church to see what counseling they can provide.

You will need support in order to turn off: "so many things that my mind that keep playing over and over again."

Will you seek professional help?