@renee5 - I know how you feel but your sons story gives me hope my son will survive this ordeal as there are survivors of this horrible disease. I know our medical team has given us great info. On survival rates and other items to look for but it still feels like a crap shoot with every chemo session, and every scan. I know my son’s dreams were derailed with his cancer diagnosis. He is still able to drive, and currently lives with me since he has two more rounds of chemo to go. His younger brother is scared for him but doing his best to be there for him in any capacity needed. I am doing well too, but it is lonely as life goes on as you try to keep your child alive. I have a few Friends who check in on me and they ask me to come hang out but I am too tired during chemo week. Other weeks I am just tired from work and trying to keep it all together. I do once a month counseling and some meditation to help with my frustrations with the diseases.