@IndianaScott I have an update.
After reading your comment I gained strength and tried one more time. I approached my Mom by saying how exhausted I was. (She had another TIA last week, so I had been sleeping on the floor beside her bed for two nights.) Anyway, I told her tired I was and how I’m just not able to care for her 24/7 like I want to. I also said I’m trying so hard to keep her home with me. So I am going to search for someone to come into my home for a few hours, a few days a week to help me. She listened wide-eyed, and for a moment I saw the woman who raised me return. Her eyes softened and her face relaxed and she said, ok I understand. That statement alone made me more happy than I’ve been in the last 5 months.
Now my search begins, I can see a light ahead.
Thank you @IndianaScott. Thank you…