@diverdown1 Dr. Ramani is the best! Like you, I got help from Dr. Ramani on You Tube, that has helped me to cope, immensely! Both of my parents were narcissistic! One, though, in particular, was a Malignant Narcissist, where they had to have complete control, over everyone in the household, and then some! I was severely abused, both physically and mentally, by both of my parents, as a child, and grew up, in extreme fear and anxiety, as an everyday occurrence! The parent who was the Malignant Narcissist, targeted me to be the outcast of the family. I have 4 siblings, and i was the second oldest! My other siblings were mentally abused by my parents, but not physically beaten, by both parents, like I was! It was a horrible childhood for me, where I had to stay in a corner, in the basement, much of the time, when my parents weren’t making me to housework, or yardwork! My siblings all had bedrooms, that they shared, but not me! If I tried to speak up, while eating, at the table, as a child, I was verbally reprimanded, and sent to the basement, with no more food, and the basement door locked! So, I left home, and stayed with school buddies, my last year of high school! I couldn’t take it any more! One of my parents had thrown me down the basement stairs, in a fit of anger, at the time, where I sustained a serious leg injury, in a lot of pain, and huge swelling, where I couldn’t get
up! My parents were screaming at each other, and would not help me, and would not call 9-1-1! So, after about an hour or so, of my lying on the cement floor, in pain, my younger sister called my older sister ( who had left home, and gotten married ), who came over right away, helped me to get up the steps and into her car, and she drove me to the hospital ER! I couldn’t tell the Dr.’s what happened, and I never complained to anybody about my abusive parents, my entire childhood and high school years, except my sisters, because, many times, over and over, my patents told me, they would kill me, if I complained to anybody, in the family, or Doctor’s, or anybody else, and it got back to them! I was absolutely petrified/ scared that they would kill me, if I said a word to anyone about how they abused me! I left home, after the basement injury. So, it was like a breath of fresh air, when I left home, in my senior year of high school ( homeless ), and I never came back to live in that home, again! Anyway, I made a good life for myself, with no supportive parents, or family, except my older sister, in my younger years! Somehow, I managed to put myself through college, and ended up, working for a big, international company, in a management position, making a six figure income, and raised a family of my own, successfully! So, Dr. Ramani helped me get through the mental after affects, of what I had gone through, as a child, with her You Tube programs. Two of my siblings are narcissistic, and I have had some problems dealing with their self-centered attitudes! Both of my parents passed away, a number of years ago, and, as I am approaching 80 years old, dealing with multiple medical problems, looking back on my life, I don’t know how I managed to climb out of my abused childhood, and be able to be successful at overcoming such adversity! Maybe it helped a bit, when I majored in Psychology, during my college years!