Hi @lmprap , and welcome to Mayo Clinic Connect! I am so glad to see you join this discussion and begin sharing experiences with others about Vaginal Sling Complications. Looking at pain that may be pudendal neuropathy in addition to two surgeries in two years and navigating a bulging disk is a lot to deal with.

You may be interested to connect with @leigho55 who originally created the discussion, Anyone out there diagnosed with Pudendal Neuralgia?
https://connect.mayoclinic.org/discussion/anyone-out-there-diagnosed-with-pudendal-neuralgia/
You mention not expecting your life to be the way it is. This resonates with me. I remember being so, so sad because of unmet expectations. It was helpful to go through the process of identifying expectations I had that really were unrealistic and letting them go. Those were the easiest to deal with and they were noise for those that remained. I do have expectations that will not happen and had to learn how to grieve them. It has helped. I coordinated a family zoom for a time and we walked through a couple books together that everyone really did like. You may want to check them out, written by Ted Bowman. They are Loss of Dreams: A Special Kind of Grief, and Finding Hope When Dreams Have Shattered both encouraging and easy to read. I ended up contacting the author when I had difficulties finding the books and he was extremely helpful.
- Ted Bowman https://bowmanted.com/books/

Do you mind sharing a bit more about your pain and how it is affecting you? What is the most difficult for you?