I feel for you because I have been there and it is a difficult time waiting for the surgery once you have made your mind up. I want to reassure you that it is normal to be a little frightening. I found it helpful to realize that the surgery would remove the cancer and I would be through that part. I know your family and close friends will step up for you but do think about talking to a counselor to help you with your feelings. I didn’t hear from many people who I thought would be there for me and that includes family who live close. I think some people don’t know what to say so they don’t connect at all. You just hug yourself. You are strong and you will get through this. I did. As for my body, it isn’t the same despite reconstruction later but honestly I have found a way to embrace my new self. It has changed its appearance but I am the same person and feel just as strong. I wish you well and hope surgery goes well. I had no pain and I took care of myself eating lots of protein and taking probiotics. Stay positive and don’t be disappointed in others. They just aren’t as strong as you would like them to be. Hugs.