@lacy2
Very well written and helpful to me. I am so sorry about the situation with your parents. I get what you are telling us about how sad you feel. I have so many regrets about all the times I disappointed my parents (a lot of the time due to selfishness and 'me, me', me' )regardless of what they wanted or needed. Physically I was 'there' but at the same time ignored their needs or wants. I frequently ask for God's forgiveness and I know if they were here they would forgive me also.