My life was stolen by family/med providers thanks to factitious disorder. I am now "old" but don't consider myself old. After an accident a former PCP decided I wasn't "eligible" for rehab and wanted to send me to a nursing home (to die) but I found my voice and said "no". I know I will eventually die but want 20+yrs more. I have a thyroid disorder due to being butchered by a parathyroid surgeon and have anxiety, depression, muscle aches etc. all thyroid related. My endocrinologist says my levels are "normal" whatever that is. I can't take most meds because of intolerance. I have switched providers and am fighting the fight w/good PT, good shrink who listens and doesn't try to drug me. But each a.m. I wake up w/anxiety because I was programmed to believe I was sick and too old to live. I do lots of breath work to reduce the anxiety and get in my car and drive somewhere and scream at the top of my lungs to get it out. It works for me (watch out for traffic) and no one knows I am working off my anxiety. I am taking good care of myself despite some providers who don't want to listen to me and am looking for meaningful work to keep my mind involved (+extra $). Getting angry and venting helps me a lot, just don't do anything weird or unsafe - it will come back to bite you.