@captainoftheship I'm sorry, it sounds like you're having a really bad day. There are too many trials and tribulations that pop up in our surprise life. Ugh, the self deprecation is horrible, just makes you feel crapier about everything you're going through and more alone, again. I'm feeling the no more "us", as well. Decision fatigue is a good description of one of the many issues, and it's not just the decisions, H doesn't think about the many little things he used to do for you that you just have the take a breath and do yourself now. adding to the overall load.
You are seen. Aren't we all lucky about one thing, we understand each other and always have this place to unload.