@isadora2021
Thank you for responding. I appreciate your kind words. I too had cancer about 10 years ago. I also lost 2 children to crib death. I could go on about all the things in my life that I had no control over. The problem is not really looks, I logically understand that but I have no sense of self, did not have a childhood that taught me to like myself. This cannot be replaced. Looks were something I thought I could control in an otherwise uncontrolable existence. I was wrong.