@katostrophiclyslow I have been there as well. It is a brutal merry go round. As they say, "it takes what it takes..." I did not quit until I reached the depths of despair. My partner of decades, also an alcoholic, just could not. He tried, went to treatment, 6 times at the ER in 2 years, cirrhosis, alcoholic hepatitis, pancreatitis and throwing up blood. I found him passed away in our house 12/18/23. This dis-ease will kill.