@donaldrobert Hi. I totally get how lonely you have become. It sounds like you were in a constant state of high expectations from every direction of your life, prior to getting sick. Sometimes people don't get why you can no longer be that superhero. So they turn away. Those relationships are not worth pursuing. I had a very active social life as well as work and volunteering with animal shelter and rescue groups. Every part of my life was important to me. but when you get a chronic illness causing severe pain, you really do find out who your "real" friends are. I think it is important not to rely TOO heavily on those who are your support people now, including your wife. Find in person non profit groups who support your illness. Those are REAL people, who understand your struggle. Also find and rely on groups like this. There are many various support groups on Facebook. It might take a little effort to find the right fit for you. This is a great group. I hope you are having a good day today. One day at a time!
Lori