You've come to a great place to share your experiences and get some good support. I hope you can find a way to address this before the depression really settles in.

What worked for me was to tell my husband there were things I needed to do but I was so worried about him needing something while I was out that I was letting things go. Like, the doctor wants me to get out and walk to bring down my weight, cholesterol, blood sugars, blood pressure... whatever. Or, I really need some new shoes, bras, slacks, and it takes time to really shop. Once we found the right person to be a companion/ caregiver he was fine with me leaving. I found that the best fit for my DH was an older woman who felt more like a friend than a caregiver. He actually looked forward to her visits and I could meet friends for coffee and he was good with that. Just know that it can take some time to find the person who is a good fit. I gave up a couple of times, then tried again. Don't give up. I stayed home at first, then did quick trips to grocery store, gradually increasing my time away.

I'm sure others will have thoughts that may help you. Wishing you well as you navigate this ugly disease.