@bshiver

I am a Christian too. The only way that I survive this life at this point is knowing that God has allowed this to happen and He will walk me through it. I was very angry with God for 3 years. In the end, I settled it by looking back on the miracles in my life, the successes, the blessings and some real mess- ups too. I can be either grateful or mad. I choose grateful. Good luck and God bless you.