I totally understand. I went through the same thing last July and got the news right before my birthday. I was shocked because we don't have cancer in our family, either side. I was on my way to see my son off overseas when I got the phone call. I didn't want to tell anyone and just had to hold it in. Then I just couldn't cry. I was told it was detected early and needed a lumpectomy and radiation, followed with hormone blocker. I was thankful for the news, but just hearing the word cancer can send you in a tailspin, I have to say fear was the hardest thing to deal with before and after. My surgeon was great. My radiation doctor was too. My oncologist doctor is good too, but I just don't feel the same way with him as I do with the other two and have decided to look for another one. I want to feel comfortable with all my doctors. I wish you the best!