I get it. My husband and I have been together 52 years. We haven’t always been on the same page about a lot if things but we have still enjoyed being TOGETHER. Now we are together but miles apart in great discussions.
I read to him - articles, NYTimes obituaries, excerpts from books. We can enjoy movies and shows together somewhat but he goes in and out of the bathroom all day usually doing nothing.
I tried playing games but he can’t follow.
I really miss travel - we did a lot- but now it’s only road trips if I have the energy to manage everything.
I fantasize about deeper conversations and we do try to stay social but he is getting harder for other people.
I love yoga and tai chi but have not done it in years. I do listen to Buddhist Dharma talks and sit zazen occasionally - it helps but I don’t last long. My therapist is a Jungian psychoanalyst who loves my dreams but often our sessions are just me telling my life with my husband and ALZ.
I feel a self shrinking- writing and journaling help.
I miss my husband even though he is right next to me- a little too much.
All I can say is I get it.
Wish mayo connect had a zoom link so we could meet each other and truly connect.