Hello, everyone...

Please forgive me for not coming back and replying to all of you who so compassionately reached back to me.

I pray you do not find me rude and ungrateful, I just simply, again since I posted in initially have been in the grips of such unrelenting pain and fatigue ( I suppose that is for another board, forgive me, just needed to let you all know I have been so incapacitated by both of these afflictions that I am barley functioning...and yet I feel terrible, as so many of you are still suffering but made the time to be so kind as to reply to me. Please know how much I appreciate the support and empathy and suggestions....I am a little overwhelmed right now and I hope you all understand that while I would like to be gracious as I ought to be and reply to each of you individually, no word of a lie, here at 12:15 AM after sleeping almost half the day, I am still exhausted and my back is completely seized up, so will attempt to make some sort of sense...)

As far as opioids go, there is no way my doctor will prescribe one to me, even if I tearfully plead with him that it is the only thing that gave me any relief...he is very dismissive of my pain, my "back pain" as he always says, even though I have tried to tell him it is the entire lower half of my body that is in pain...he is the one who prescribed the tylelnol, and always throws tylenol for arthritis samples at me, which I have told him do not touch my pain.

Wait times here in Canada for pain clinics are, like so many things here terribly long.

The neurosurgeon I saw is the best of the best and said he could not help me.

I have been looking at back braces, the ones specifically for sciatica I have seen are only for one leg, as apparently bilateral sciatica is rare.

I am sorry if I sound so very, "yeah, but, yeah but..."

I just feel so defeated.

And I know I am too hyperfocused on my pain, which probably only makes it worse.

I admire all of you for your being so proactive in dealing with your pain.

Thank you all again for caring.

I will try to be better as far as replying to you all individually, and lending my support to you all as well.

Thank you for your kindness and suggestions and prayers.

I feel less alone, however I wish that you all had no idea what I am going through.

God Bless you all.