grahmilou-
The last part of your opening statement expresses my experience exactly.
You wrote: "Trying to stay grateful for today but sometimes the anxiety feels overwhelming especially as I see our country change for worse and worry about the world for my grandchildren."
I can accept that my personal meanings, joys and pains will end with me.
The larger loss of human community, the rising power of unlimited greed and the destruction of the natural world that gives us life is a tragedy I can't ignore.
This is our time, and we must live with it. And we must try our best to embody the possibility that it could be different.