That is so very sad and heart wrenching to hear. Doctors have been trained that pain meds are bad. You need to find a new doctor. Go to pain management if you haven’t. That will appease them. Your age is a conflict for them to prescribe narcotics. That’s not the right answer. It’s extremely exhausting for you. Do you have family or supportive relationships that can advocate for you and help you find a physician that will work with you? My father is 93. He has a fabulous geriatric doctor that treats his pain, insomnia, and depression with appropriate drugs. He does his job and monitors him. Keep searching and fight for your health care!