I can appreciate what you are going through. Having had kidney disease for years, I too was devastated when told I had kidney cancer, which was discovered incidentally to another problem. My only comment would be to see an appropriate Oncologist, and one at a teaching facility if possible, and hear what you are told with respect to options. My understanding is that kidney cancers are slow growing, so as scared as you may be, you need time to make an informed decision. I'm now 84, and still have the bad kidney, and was diagnosed a year and a half ago. Please, take your time, and have aa trusted person with you when you see the oncologist. Make a list of your questions so that you are an informed patient. I wish you good luck, a great Oncologist, and peace.