@mir123 When I was 10 years old (remember that was 80 years ago) I contracted scarlet fever. No drugs then. Did we even have aspirin? I was placed in isolation in a hospital for contageous diseases. There was nothing they could do for except wait for me to die. Well, obviously, I didn't, but I was there for a month. Perhaps this has something to do with the way I feel now. I would not say it is a strong experience - more like just a feeling. There is no unpleasantness or other feelings - just the feeling of being untethered. I think it is because of my age.