wow what a statement, my beliefs wont allow sideways without going to hell, my brother gave up and went that direction, all i could do was pray for him. not trying to change your mind and i so much at a couple points wanted the same, let me go.. that is what my family said i was being too selfish. been dead a couple times and brought back at the last minuet. god must have plans for me and not sure what they are, i could be worse off than recovering from a major head trauma like i am right now, some days i dont want to get out of bed, you know-give up. but i have seen too many family members and friends at funerals who were crushed by selfish individuals. my fight that keeps me in the game is knowing my daughter would be hit the hardest and i get up every day and i work at staying alive so i can give her the drive to carry on too. she has seizures and the doc says one day a grand mall . mine are better now been a couple months since my last and ill keep praying .every day they are finding cures for things. i just have someone to fight to live for. I pray you find that person. Have a blessed evening and try to make someone's day brighter, a smile or laugh goes a long way, same as a hug. say love ya to somebody. make a difference to someone who cares. i recently turned 69 and want to see 100 plus.