@tracidw I know. I feel what you are going through. I remember when my mom got sick, I worked in one state, my husband was in an other with work (pre MCI) and my mother was so far away and I'm an only child. I hear you about wanting to be invisible. I can't make it better, but we can lean in, and reach out for help, Talk to each other, encourage each other, and find whatever morsel of help we can get from time to time. I find, for me, just knowing what resources are out there, or I may need, in the future, helps me not be so fearful. I try to read the encouraging posts, glean from the factual posts about this disease, so I'm at least a bit more prepared than I was the day my husband was diagnosed. Try to have as happy a holiday as you can have. We caregivers deserve every bit of peace we can get.