Is it possible you could own a dog? I don't know what your living arrangements are or if you've ever had a pet before but let me just say - owning a dog, is the most rewarding life experience. They love you unconditionally, they're always happy to see you and they are so comical in their attempts to please you. Dogs are brought into so many environments to help people heal, not feel lonely, etc. There's a saying for dogs that are rescued. It reads: "Who rescued who ?" Give it some thought. Your in my prayers