I have felt this way for a bit. I was diagnosed in late Feb with stage 3C, if not 4, serous carcinoma endometrial cancer, started chemo in March, finished 6 treatments June 30th, had total hysterectomy Aug 20th, started chemo back October 13th after begging for early release because my CA125 numbers were on the rise, had to add Herceptin this time because I'm HER2+, have echo every 12 weeks because of it and after 3 treatments my numbers went up instead of down. But with all that's going on, I have not been sick. Not as sick as some people I read about. Tiny bit of nausea is all. My PET scan shows things are stable even though I still have 3 active lymph nodes that are being stubborn. I say take them out but they are too close to important parts of vascular system and a vascular surgeon would be needed. With the advances and goals they are reaching in the cancer field, I am hopeful that I'll live a long life. So what if I have to have chemo for the rest of my life? Dialysis patients probably feel the same way. It's something I have to live with. For some reason I was chosen. If not for me to learn from, then someone else's lesson to learn. I think a positive attitude plays an important part in kicking medical conditions. I still have my days where I cry. Crying is good for the soul. What I don't do is dwell on just how long I have. Any one of my family or friends could die way before me. Happy Holidays to all.