I had a heart attack at 55. I was traumatized by some things that happened too. Our local hospital put a heart pump in and transferred me to a university hospital for bypass. During preop a nurse accidentally pulled the pump out of place and caused another attack. After surgery 2days later I am convinced my nurse took my pain meds and disappeared for the rest of his shift. I was delusional so my concerns were ignored.
Months later I had severe depression that they said was pump head. I think I had ptsd and it has taken years to recover. It really helps to talk about it but it took me a year of ect and a lot of therapy. The physical part was easier. I’m glad they saved me now, there is so much to be thankful for but it was quite a journey!
Thanks for sharing yours. Focus on the positive and take care of yourself.