@indogirl me too! I had a meme about this too but can’t find it now! Something to the effect “my mind is 25 but my body tells me I am 100” …!

@indogirl No, please remind yourself you did not wait too long! You are reaching out now, so that is good. And you acknowledge you want assistance to feel you're not alone, and that you want to feel better. Please be gentle on yourself, okay?!

This time of year can be really tough for so many of us. There are a lot of triggers in the advertisements we see, or music we hear. Again, please be gentle on yourself.
Ginger

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I hear you. I guess many would consider me old at 75 but I never felt that way until recently. My 2nd back surgery was not quite 3 years ago and though it did get rid of the pain I just feel I never mentally bounced back from it.

@indogirl You aren't broken. I am 55, got sober at 47. I always told myself I was broken as my parents put me in treatment at 14. Relapse, sober, relapse, sober but I finally got sober what I hope is for good. When I got Long COVID, I went into a depression. I resisted medication as I took it on and off for many years, but when drinking and using drugs, antidepressants are really useless. I finally asked my Psychiatrist about getting on a low dose of something as I started having hopelessness. I started taking 30 mg of Cymbalta (duolextine) an SSNRI which helps. I react to medication differently. I am one that meds hit me kind of in reverse. Example, alcohol and narcotics make me hyper. Anyway, you are not broken. Take all this one day at a time. I have to focus on what I can do today. If I stay in the past (which is gone) I can get in the dregs (like I was yesterday, actually) and if I go into the future, I get anxiety. Realizing that I do that has helped as I can catch myself and bring myself back into the moment. You are not alone and I so appreciate you writing your thoughts on here.