@law59
Thank you for reply. I, too will sometimes use voice to text when I am having especially hard days. I'm very sorry you're dealing with this on a much more secure level than I. My cognitive function has improved some but I still struggle and at times it's almost like I have aphasia. Physically, I have very low stamina. The fatigue is just so frustrating. It has been my daughter and I since 2011. I've rehabilitated my backyard, I was always strong, ran 5ks, mud runs and for a good long while could hold a 4 minute plank. Now I have to nap every day. And as for trauma therapy, I will be brutally honest. I am an abuse survivor. I've been in therapy off and on since my 20's. My father s-abused all three of his children. My brother's death in Feb. 2025 was no doubt related to the PTSD that haunted him. He was an alcoholic and his heart simply gave out. My sincere hope was that after our dad died, my siblings and I could process our abuse and PTSD together. So, the death of my brother, at just 62 has created a whole new kind of sadness and anger. And to have to deal with this while battling LC has almost been too much. My daughter is 24. And it's for her that I have kept going. But recently I realized that I'm worth it to keep going, too. It's crazy how much I can hate myself for something I had no control over. And now LC! I'm pretty pissed. So I'm turning my anger into action and finally advocating for myself. And I have to accept that life is different, but it's not over. I'll adjust and find a new way to live. After the death of my husband, I had mostly survived more than thrived. The focus was always on my daughter. Bless her. She was 2 weeks shy of turning 10 when she lost her sweet Daddy. So, I thought I was a pro at dealing with grief, and with remaining strong. This last year has knocked me off my feet. But I'm back on my feet. Take good care.