@loriesco I assure you, I am doing SO MUCH BETTER now! I don't know if there's a date on my original comment but it was a couple months ago and many things have changed since then. I have a mental health therapist now, someone who specializes in helping people cope with the fears associated with aging. While I still have episodes of anxiety, I am so much better at coping with them now. I wake up every morning and say out loud, "I am not a victim. I am strong and healthy and I'm going to get up and enjoy the day." And on the couple of occasions when I've gone to the "dark place in my mind" again, I just say, "Nope. You're not going there" and I focus on something else. I know that's not the answer. I also speak from experience, having lost my dad that way when I was 14. It might put me out of my own pain (or maybe not - who knows what happens after?) but one thing is for certain, and that is it would cause my family devastating pain. And why would I do that to them when I love them so much? Another thing that helped tremendously is reading all of the supportive comments on this thread! And so many success stories! I had made the mistake of joining a "support group" on Facebook and it was nothing but horror stories about living with osteoporosis. That's what made me go to the thoughts of suicide. I hadn't yet learned that those stories are the exception, not the rule, and that most people live good lives in spite of it. So thank you for your caring comments!