@jimz72, I understand your anger. The loss of a child is heart-wrenching and as the temperatures drop, you're brought back to that terrible day as if it were yesterday, ripping open the wound and rage. Your son needed help and when he finally reached out for it, the system failed him.
Now is the time to focus on your grief and your love for your children who are also grieving the loss of their brother, especially Andrew.
There is support out there to help you. @ziggypop mentioned Narcotics Anonymous https://na.org/ and Al-anon https://al-anon.org/
I'll add NAMI Helpline https://www.nami.org/support-education/nami-helpline/
Call 1-800-950-NAMI (6264)
Text NAMI to 62640
They can help connect you with the support that match your needs now and in the future.
We're here to walk virtually by your side. Will you take that step?
@colleenyoung
Thank-you Colleen for taking the time to respond.
I do need to seek support. I really am struggling. A mother is supose to protect her children and i know i am being unreasonable saying that but one cant help but play it out in your mind, hearing him call out to you realizing the magnitude of his circumstances and to fail at pursuing some justice.