Have you told your Dr. that you are feeling like this? Please do, and get some medication and help. It is especially frustrating before they admit it; you are spinning your wheels and as for me, I felt that as far as he was concerned everything I said or did was wrong.
It will get better, eventually he will have to admit he has a problem, or other family or friends will persuade him. I feel for you, and please, please take care of yourself. I will say a prayer for you,
God bless you in this time of sadness, I have been there!