Hello,
I’m so sorry about all you’re going through and I can definitely sympathize with you since I am going through my own hell pain wise. However, whether you may believe me or not, there is infinite wisdom hidden within pain and suffering. There is only one path to follow in order to find the way and that is through pain and not around it. It is not easy but pain was never meant to be easy; otherwise, it would not be called pain for nothing. Never give up no matter what and never succumb to pain. I live with it daily and especially nightly when I go to bed. I am in a lot of pain and having stopped all medications back in February of this year after my doctor told me to do so. I was experiencing bad side effects. Now my doctor suggested controlled opioids for the pain, but I refused.
Hang in there and talk to your pain, you will learn from it strength to go on.
I wish you the very best.
Take care and try to have a serene Sunday,
gus